Respiració crea tensió tensió permet moviment

-L’aire abandonat d’una respiració sostinguda deixa un cos dèbilment descuidat

evidentment cada cop xuclat més violentment per la gravetat.-

RESPIRACIÓ

Llepades d’aire sostingut

Glopades de cossos sense respiració

Dominats per la gravetat.

Sé el que faig exactament ?

O no?

Jo controlo els moviments o els moviments em controlen a mi?

És la respiració qui em permet moure’m?

Respiració crea tensió

Tensió permet moviment.

TENSIÓ

Tensió que sosté l’aire,

que aguanta el cos,

que no em deixa caure,

que jo control tot.

(O això crec.)

No tensió que deixa l’aire,

que perd tot,

que deixa anar,

que cau abandonat, oblidat,

que deixa que els moviments

em controlin a mi,

que em treu l’autonomia.

(O potser no.)

MOVIMENT

-Rebots condensats que repeteixen el que els crits mengen del silenci apagat d’un començament de respiració encesa.-

Caure en el oblit,

Caure fins el fons.

agafar,

agafar-te

(per no caure).

Però caure fins el fons.

Aguantar, deixar anar.

No tot el que es deixa anar se'n va.

No tot el que et sosté t’aguanta.

No tot el que aguantes ho pots sostenir.

No tot el que sostens ho pot abraçar.

No tot el que abraces ho pots abarcar.

No tot el que abarques ho pots aparcar.

No tot el que és mou arriba

No tot el que arriba se’n va

No tot el que se’n va és mou.

Però agafar.

Agafar-te per no caure.

Per no caure més enllà del fons del tot.

Del tot.

Que ara ja, tot moviment t'ha tallat la respiració.

Però respiració crea tensió

i tensió permet moviment.

El hilo del vivir

Que la vida són instantes.

Que la vida són momentos.

Recosidos

Recogidos

Con el hilo de la vida.

Hilo

Que ya voy perdiendo

como el juicio.

Delirando.

Deshilando.

Desfilando.

Desatada.

castigada.

Castigada de espalda a la paret.

De cara al mundo.

Condenada a ver la vida passar.

Recogiendo

recosiendo

pedazitos de felicidad

de cosecha propia.

Pedazitos de todas las formas

De todos los colores

pedazitos distintos

pedazitos enganxados.

Pedazitos enganxados

Con las ganas de vivir.

Pedazitos recosidos

con el hilo de ir viviendo,

de ir viendo la vida passar.

Pedazitos pegagosos

Que no se como quietarme de encima

pedazitos de vida

De ver la vida passar.

Que la vida són instantes.

que la vida són momentos.

Recosidos

Recogidos

con el hilo de la vida.

Perquè ets un Cactus.

Ets un cactus.

Tant dur, tant resistent, tant supervivent.

Tant alimentat de tota l'aigua que ni tan sols necessites ni somiar.

Tant ferm, tant ben plantat, tant elegant.

Però recobert de tantes punxes…

Sembla que et vols obrir,

que estàs aquí dret com un estaquirot

esperant per donar i rebre abraçades,

per intercanviar energia amb l’ambient.

Però no.

Però no deixes que ningú s'acosti gaire més del que tu et tanques.

Però no mostres mai cap indici de que et fallen les forces,

t’autoprotegeixes perquè no et facin mal.

Però aquesta autoprotecció també és un atac.

Ataques a tots aquells globus que t'envolten,

aquells globus vermell intens que respiren  tendresa,  

que plens d'aire d'amor vénen a contaminar.ho tot de passió.

D'una passió que tu no vols ni sentir-ne a parlar, que et negués a tastar.

Bombolles de sabó transparents que es queden en un no res al tocar unes de les teves punxes afilades.
Asfixiades. (Deu ser de tanta aigua.)

Perquè tu ets un cactus…

Tant ferm , tant ben plantat, tant elegant.

Tant dur, tant resistent, tant supervivent.

Tant alimentat de tota l'aigua que ni tan sols necessites ni somiar.

Però recobert de tantes punxes…

Deu ser que les gotes d'aigua de les bombolles de sabó que et venen a fer un peto 
ofeguen les teves punxes afilades exficciant la teva pell. 

-Avegades et podries treure aquesta disfresa ridicula de cactus amb punxes

a veure si et creixen les ales i abraçes més lluny-

TOO MUCH TENTION

I do a diet, but only during the week, if not it's too much.

To eat healthy is really healthy, but if I always eat healthy it's too much, you know? I also want to eat chocolate.

On weekend, I eat chocolate, but only a little bite, if not it's too much.

I really like massages, but only on Friday, to relax after the week, not during the week, this would be too much.

I want to be relax but not too much. But also not too much stressed. Because I don't want to be worried too much or to think too much or to cry too much, I mean, a little bite it's okey but not too much you know?

People say that to do flexibility is really important, but I think it's not good to do too much.To do jpp it's also really important, but to do too much it's really too much. I mean it's important to be strong but not too much.

It's important to practise technique but not too much because I also want to do research but not much because I want to be good in technic. Like, yes, I want to take risk, but not too much, because I want to take care, but not too much because I still want to take risk.

Today I want to go to sleep a little bit late, but not too much. Actually, tonight I want to party and to drink, but not too much, because I want to rest. Ba, I also want to meet new people but not too much because I don't have too much time to spend with too much friends.

Sometimes I want to be alone but not too much. And I also want to rest but not too much. I don't want to be too much lazy, but also not too much crazy. Anyway, tomorrow I don't want to wake up too late.

Okey, I have to sleep, but not too much, I will put the alarm because I want to be productive tomorrow. But it's sunday so I also don't want to be too much productive. Because I want to rest to train good on Monday.

I think I want to sweat but not too much, because I want to smell good but not too much, if not it seems that I don't do a lot of effort. And I want to push myself, but not too much. And I want that it seems that I follow the schedule, but not too much.

Anyway, On Monday I want to train but not too much. Otherwise, I will be too much tired during the rest of the week. I mean, to be tired it's good, it means you work hard, but I don't want to be too much tired. I want to work hard, but not too much, because I want to save energy. I want to save energy but not too much because I also want to train enough, you know?

To Save energy? For what?

Sometimes I have the feeling that we don't really live our lives because we are too much scared and too much worried about doing too much things in a too much energetic level.

Too much often I have the feeling that people want to enjoy life, but not too much.

Do you know this feeling of enjoying life but not too much?

But what is life?

Life is the pleasure of wasting energy only with the purpose of enjoying watching how this energy is all a waste of energy, no?

Bha, Wasting energy for the pleasure of wasting energy!

Some days I would like to enjoy really too much my life.

I would like

To train too much

To be tired too much

To rest too much

To eat too much

To party too much

To sleep to much

Can you imagine it?

How good it could be, eh…

But maybe Another day because for today, I  already did too much.

Also because today I want to save energy for tomorrow you know?

Bha, If I keep all my life saying tomorrow tomorrow I will do nothing!

So maybe today is a good day to start to waste too much energy!

(I really like tightwire when there’s too much tention.

Yes! Sometimes things works better with too much tension.

I’m not going to do crazy technique or crazy artistic, I’m just gonna waste energy for the pleasure of wasting energy!)

-IMPRO TIGHTWIRE-